Identity Crisis
Tis been a while since I last blogged, and in all honesty, didn't think there was anything that interesting to update about my life anyway.
On Sunday, visited A's church. Twas a refreshing change from the usual 'energetic' service I am used to at my church. Hers actually had a programme order, and I understand this is the norm for most 'old school' churches. The worship experience also consisted of hymns, vis-a-vis the contemporary gospel songs we sing at mine. It was a small and homely church, where everybody kind of knows everyone else, or at least recognise each other. So you can guess that, in my first trip to 'look-see', there were many people who actually noticed this 'newcomer'. When the preacher called for 'newcomers' to stand up so the entire congregation can welcome them, I sat rooted in the pew, and told A I was not going to stand up, though there were quite a few pairs of eyes on me. I have never been comfortable being the centre of attention in a church, as loud and boisterous as I may be at times. Thereafter, there was supposed to be a Bible study session, but I went off first. It's been a long time since I woke up so early on a Sunday morning to go to church. Thus far, I have always attended the Saturday services at my church, primarily because I doubt I can drag myself out of bed in time to go for Sunday morning service.
A did remark to me that she had hoped I would stand up, so as to encourage her church friends to bring their friends to church as well. Hmmm....
On another note, work wise, I realise it seemed a futile attempt on my end to try to 'quash' the news from travelling around that I am transferring to another division within the investment bank I am in. Seems like all the managers know about it, and I've only told 3 other colleagues, two of whom are in the new division I am in, and one had already left the bank. Apparently, the managers will all be updated during their weekly meetings about any manpower movements, so they will know. Slipped my mind, duh!!! I had actually fretted over the magnitude of the spread of the news, as I was trying to control something essentially beyond my control circle.
Went to update my identity card and passport today with my baptism name. The amount of bureaucratic red tape I had to wade through really put me off, and made me realise how right one of my church pastors was, when I had consulted him about the 2 job offers I had concurrently one year ago, one being from my current organisation and another from a government agency. He implied that I am the kind who will be stifled by red tape, and will get highly agitated and put off. On hindsight, I realise the wisdom of his observations of me and his advice.
Why did I name this entry 'identity crisis'? Well, firstly there is the whole church issue in relating to the church vision and all, and secondly there is the name change. I am really thankful and appreciative of the fact that I have built up and established my base in my church, and I think I really need to go seek Him in relating myself to the vision laid down by the church leaders. Till the next time......
On Sunday, visited A's church. Twas a refreshing change from the usual 'energetic' service I am used to at my church. Hers actually had a programme order, and I understand this is the norm for most 'old school' churches. The worship experience also consisted of hymns, vis-a-vis the contemporary gospel songs we sing at mine. It was a small and homely church, where everybody kind of knows everyone else, or at least recognise each other. So you can guess that, in my first trip to 'look-see', there were many people who actually noticed this 'newcomer'. When the preacher called for 'newcomers' to stand up so the entire congregation can welcome them, I sat rooted in the pew, and told A I was not going to stand up, though there were quite a few pairs of eyes on me. I have never been comfortable being the centre of attention in a church, as loud and boisterous as I may be at times. Thereafter, there was supposed to be a Bible study session, but I went off first. It's been a long time since I woke up so early on a Sunday morning to go to church. Thus far, I have always attended the Saturday services at my church, primarily because I doubt I can drag myself out of bed in time to go for Sunday morning service.
A did remark to me that she had hoped I would stand up, so as to encourage her church friends to bring their friends to church as well. Hmmm....
On another note, work wise, I realise it seemed a futile attempt on my end to try to 'quash' the news from travelling around that I am transferring to another division within the investment bank I am in. Seems like all the managers know about it, and I've only told 3 other colleagues, two of whom are in the new division I am in, and one had already left the bank. Apparently, the managers will all be updated during their weekly meetings about any manpower movements, so they will know. Slipped my mind, duh!!! I had actually fretted over the magnitude of the spread of the news, as I was trying to control something essentially beyond my control circle.
Went to update my identity card and passport today with my baptism name. The amount of bureaucratic red tape I had to wade through really put me off, and made me realise how right one of my church pastors was, when I had consulted him about the 2 job offers I had concurrently one year ago, one being from my current organisation and another from a government agency. He implied that I am the kind who will be stifled by red tape, and will get highly agitated and put off. On hindsight, I realise the wisdom of his observations of me and his advice.
Why did I name this entry 'identity crisis'? Well, firstly there is the whole church issue in relating to the church vision and all, and secondly there is the name change. I am really thankful and appreciative of the fact that I have built up and established my base in my church, and I think I really need to go seek Him in relating myself to the vision laid down by the church leaders. Till the next time......
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