To relinquish Control
I've come to realise I have been relying on my blog to document issues in my life, somewhat akin to keeping an online diary. Last weekend, I was at a dive trip to Redang Island off the coast of Trengganu in Peninsula Malaysia (went there with 2 friends from church / cell group). In essence, I didn't really dive much, but was more into snorkelling and playing bridge with new-found friends I got to know along the trip.
Anyway, was ruminating on life (tend to be a bit more reflective when I am on vacations) and figured that my keen sense of wanderlust has much to do with my innate desire to get away from it all here, to just lead a carefree existence doing what I would like to do best....in essence, a bummer (or at least to me). I mean, how many people get to be paid wages doing what they love with enough to get by? Indeed, their worries might stem from other issues I won't know about, but to work and chill at a beach resort, that's bliss.....everyday's a vacation.
On another note, I am also aware of the abundance of God's blessings in my life. Like I had mentioned previously, I had changed division to another part of the investment bank I am in, and within 3 weeks in my new capacity, one of my big bosses decided to recommend and put me up for another transfer to another department within the division, this time doing work that is a tad more specialised. Apart from which, I got a call from a 'head-hunter' in Hong Kong, enquiring if I was keen to 'jump' to another investment bank. I was totally stunned by how fast things move, and the fact that I was being considered as a potential candidate to be 'head-hunted' and being put up for another transfer..... Exactly how he got my office number, I have no idea. Nah dah...zilch. But the fact remains that I can see for myself how all these would have been impossible if not for God's abundance and blessings in my life. Then again, yet why do I feel like I really want to get away from it all, to bum around?
Perhaps it's discontentment, which can eat away at your soul, so as to speak. It might even be a suppressed cry for help, I don't know. Why help? In the pressure cooker society we live in, whereby everybody is always chasing after some paper qualification or another, or planning how to climb up the corporate ladder, it makes for a very stressful existence. Sometimes, I think it would do me good to be able to live life on my own terms and conditions, kinda laissez-faire.
Neurotic musings aside, I amit there is a very steep learning curve in my current latest role, something I feel I am pressurising myself to undertake and perform within the shortest time-frame possible to the best of my capability. Now, that's a tall order, I think.....and I suppose I am putting undue pressure on myself.
Hmmm, guess it's time to hunker down and relinquish control over this aspect of my life to Him, so I can do my utmost for His highest....
Anyway, was ruminating on life (tend to be a bit more reflective when I am on vacations) and figured that my keen sense of wanderlust has much to do with my innate desire to get away from it all here, to just lead a carefree existence doing what I would like to do best....in essence, a bummer (or at least to me). I mean, how many people get to be paid wages doing what they love with enough to get by? Indeed, their worries might stem from other issues I won't know about, but to work and chill at a beach resort, that's bliss.....everyday's a vacation.
On another note, I am also aware of the abundance of God's blessings in my life. Like I had mentioned previously, I had changed division to another part of the investment bank I am in, and within 3 weeks in my new capacity, one of my big bosses decided to recommend and put me up for another transfer to another department within the division, this time doing work that is a tad more specialised. Apart from which, I got a call from a 'head-hunter' in Hong Kong, enquiring if I was keen to 'jump' to another investment bank. I was totally stunned by how fast things move, and the fact that I was being considered as a potential candidate to be 'head-hunted' and being put up for another transfer..... Exactly how he got my office number, I have no idea. Nah dah...zilch. But the fact remains that I can see for myself how all these would have been impossible if not for God's abundance and blessings in my life. Then again, yet why do I feel like I really want to get away from it all, to bum around?
Perhaps it's discontentment, which can eat away at your soul, so as to speak. It might even be a suppressed cry for help, I don't know. Why help? In the pressure cooker society we live in, whereby everybody is always chasing after some paper qualification or another, or planning how to climb up the corporate ladder, it makes for a very stressful existence. Sometimes, I think it would do me good to be able to live life on my own terms and conditions, kinda laissez-faire.
Neurotic musings aside, I amit there is a very steep learning curve in my current latest role, something I feel I am pressurising myself to undertake and perform within the shortest time-frame possible to the best of my capability. Now, that's a tall order, I think.....and I suppose I am putting undue pressure on myself.
Hmmm, guess it's time to hunker down and relinquish control over this aspect of my life to Him, so I can do my utmost for His highest....
posted by DeRi@c | 3:50 pm
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