Defeatist Attitude...NOT!!!!
Sunday school today...woke up as on any other Sundays, except that today was Games Day. Travelled to Singapore Expo. At the back of my mind, I was pretty certain that the games planned would not sit well with my bunch of kids. One word I am certain they will say is "LAME!!"
Well, they certainly did not disappoint. If truth be told, the games planned certainly could not sustain the bunch of kids under my charge, being the kinesthetic ones they are. A few were insistent on playing soccer, which was, naturally, frowned upon. So I decided to be firm about it....and they managed to 'pilfer' a ball from one of my friends, another leader in Sunday school.
The long and short of it was, they were 'blatantly' disobedient and what really riled me was when the 3 of them decided to have a private chat in one of the cubicles. I totally lost it and slammed the door open, and ordered the 3 of them. I cornered them, ticked the other 2 off and sent them back. As for the Indian Chief of the group, I let it rip at him. Boy, I realised I totally could not hold back my anger (had been simmering all this while).
What was frightening was that I could not control myself, and lambasted him. Think he was too scared and started to cry. Felt really lousy about it, and of course, discouraged about it....not exactly a good testimony for God, ain't I? Went for Chinese service, and got 'slain'.....without anyone supporting me from behind. So yes, I hit the floor.
Anyway, realised also it's not simply a matter of ministering to the kids on weekends. Now I understand what it means to have to ensure I walk right with Him, so that it doesn't affect the little sheep I am guarding. Let's just say I haven't been walking properly with His commandments, but did my business with Him. Will have to continue to do my business with Him until it is fully cleared....but yeah.
The team leader told me it's ok for me to move up with my current bunch of kids when they go into Primary 4 next year....need to be more prayerful about this.
Well, they certainly did not disappoint. If truth be told, the games planned certainly could not sustain the bunch of kids under my charge, being the kinesthetic ones they are. A few were insistent on playing soccer, which was, naturally, frowned upon. So I decided to be firm about it....and they managed to 'pilfer' a ball from one of my friends, another leader in Sunday school.
The long and short of it was, they were 'blatantly' disobedient and what really riled me was when the 3 of them decided to have a private chat in one of the cubicles. I totally lost it and slammed the door open, and ordered the 3 of them. I cornered them, ticked the other 2 off and sent them back. As for the Indian Chief of the group, I let it rip at him. Boy, I realised I totally could not hold back my anger (had been simmering all this while).
What was frightening was that I could not control myself, and lambasted him. Think he was too scared and started to cry. Felt really lousy about it, and of course, discouraged about it....not exactly a good testimony for God, ain't I? Went for Chinese service, and got 'slain'.....without anyone supporting me from behind. So yes, I hit the floor.
Anyway, realised also it's not simply a matter of ministering to the kids on weekends. Now I understand what it means to have to ensure I walk right with Him, so that it doesn't affect the little sheep I am guarding. Let's just say I haven't been walking properly with His commandments, but did my business with Him. Will have to continue to do my business with Him until it is fully cleared....but yeah.
The team leader told me it's ok for me to move up with my current bunch of kids when they go into Primary 4 next year....need to be more prayerful about this.
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